Away

The most dreaded trip passed and I am back home to my family. Was is as bad as I anticipated it will be? No, it was worse by far. I know that somehow Catalina and I depend on each other to make our mornings go smooth, we get energy from each other's smiles. There are mornings when I wake up before she does, but I rarely leave the room before she is up, just because I don't want to miss that moment when she opens her eyes and looks for me. This feeling of being needed and loved above everything and everyone else is extremely empowering. But mostly, the knowledge that I have something so precious and unique as my daughter makes me want to take advantage of every second I can in her presence.

So, how does one prepare for 4 days without her sweetheart? You can't prepare, and in my case I couldn't really make it a big deal, as I didn't want Catalina to get too scared. So instead I told her she should try on all her princess dresses so I can brag with my beautiful girl to all the people I will meet. dress like a princess? Catalina was on! This made for a very fun and beautiful show.

Tricky Sophia in the house!

7 dwarfs needed!

Beautiful Belle

Cinderella (a little bored by this time...)

Gipsy Ariel :)

Missing from here are the fairy and the ballerina costumes, the night was just not long enough...

So, early in the morning I packed and got ready to leave. Minutes before my cab came I decided to make some paper presents for my daughter. I cut a paper heart, a flower and a butterfly, I planned to paint them with glitter and make them pretty, a small present for her to find each of the mornings she wakes up without me. I did not have time to paint them, so I decided to ask her to color them instead. That did not go well...

Being away was hard, I felt her absence constantly. Like when one of the participants said (after being inside the whole day) : "oh, how I miss the sun!" and I understood "oh, how i miss my son" and i added" "I know, I miss my daughter so much, it hurts". Yeah...a career workshop might not be the perfect place to mention very tight connection to family :). The first evening came, I called to see my baby girl. And my gorgeous girl told me she had a great day, but she so wants some mommy time now! So we talked a little and at some instant, while we were just staring lovingly at each other she told me: "I just wish I could pull you through the phone so I can touch you". How is it that such a small little girl can put in words whatever I feel so much better that I can? And then we said the good night story, and then we said good bye. And the same exact thing happened for 3 nights in a row.

To go back to my little paper presents. Each morning I was telling my little girl she has a new paper present and where it is. At first she said thank you and told me she doesn't want to color it. At the second one she told me "not again". At the third one she started crying and asked me how many more did I leave her, she just does not want to color them! Far from me for caring if she colored them or not, so I just told her I love her and she can throw them if she wants. And that was the end I thought. Until 3 days later when I came back and I was greeted by this:

My cutie pie wrote a message for me. She molded her tears into a smile for me.
The world is beautiful and fun and happy again. I am back to my daughter.