Amelia

This happened in San Diego. I was so frustrated that we can't decide on a name for the baby girl in my tummy, it just felt like I cannot connect with her if I keep calling her baby. So, somehow, from all the possibilities we had in play, we decided on Amelia. We were in a store with lots of wooden toys when we saw some letter that resembled perfectly the ones Catalina has on her bedroom door. And this is when I decided that this is it! My baby girl has a name:

Catalina helped pick up the letters, but she was not happy about the name. She did not like how it sounds, she did not like that it starts with the first letter of the alphabet, while hers starts with the 3rd!
But looking back at all my struggles picking up a name, I realize how fitting (and how beautiful!) the name is. I wanted a name with a meaning for my little girl. I waited for her for 4 years! She is such a miracle, such a blessing. But at the same time, it was such hard work! 4 years of trying to get pregnant, a loss in between. She started as a possible twin and we worried crazy for a week, just to realize she's only one. I was awfully sick and tired the first trimester, I lost 12 pounds and I worried constantly there will be something wrong. I did not have any emotional support, Marius was very detached, my parents and my sister forgot they are supposed to love me. Not even a little miracle in my life could not open their hearts. So, I was by myself with little Amelia growing inside of me. Second trimester came with some relief, as I stopped expecting anything from anyone. I started feeling a little better (not for long...), but the moment I decided Amelia is mine no matter who loves her and who doesn't, everything started being much better. Marius realized at some point he will have a second daughter and became the father I knew he can be. As for the rest of the people, it's still the same, but who cares? I will be a mother of two girls, and not in my wildest dreams did I think I can be that happy!

Waiting eagerly to meet Amelia Ioana Edu. Such a beautiful name, I can't believe I ever considered anything else :). This is who I am now, a mom for Catalina and Amelia. Happy and proud!